Monday, July 27

Nutrition: I was hungry as hell at DBB today. Frustrating.
  • Larabars: 2
  • fuckton of smoked almonds

Sleep: 8.25 hours in bed, 915p-530a, 69% quality. Felt pretty effing solid to me, dunno what that's about. Woke at 5a and could've fallen back, seems I did, as the alarm started buzzing at 528a*. Need to turn in on the early side every night this week and see if that restores my recovery. *Going to make 530a my standard wake time; even on weekends this is probably when I want to get up for a long run, so I'm going to get me & those pooches all trained to it!

Healthy Movement: Standing at DBB got old fast. Lower legs were tight/sore; I still need mats at both places, but somehow it's easier at NSS; maybe I move more there? Ran in the blazing hot heat after work, and the sad/tight hamstring was a welcome excuse to quit early; heat + roads + solo = suck.

Fun & Play: A day at DBB! A challenging-as-hell tax return. Chitchatting about Tahoe with taxy peeps; I wonder how BK would feel knowing he's some kind of legend for those folks. A semi-okay run after yesterday's mental fail. Hubs time, including the possibility of taking the dogs camping so I can run on the SHT.

Stress Management: Jury duty tomorrow. NO THANK YOU KIND SIRS, PLEASE UNSUBSCRIBE ME FROM YOUR MAILING LIST.

Sunday, July 26

Nutrition:
  • smoked almonds

Sleep: 8 hours in bed, 930p-530a, 64% quality. Better; don't remember waking for anything. Napped post-run, 10a-12p or so, but chopped up by hubs.

Healthy Movement: Excitedly headed to Andes for singletrack delightful times with my favorites, but the body kind of failed me a bit, and the brain REALLY did. Napped afterward and felt a tiny bit better.

Fun & Play: Seeing my pals and nice, new, lovely trails. Nap. Hubs time.

Temperance: Hate the pity party that my run turned into. I kept thinking it was unfair that everyone else is so much faster, and I can't keep up. But I'm recovering from Tahoe, but so is Brian and HE is just fine, so why am I taking so long, but he's a dandelion and I'm a stupid orchid. Or Heidi just ran a hard ten miles yesterday and she says this is hard, but she's totally keeping up with the boys, so why do I suck so bad? It's because of lifting, but I LOVE lifting, and shouldn't it be good for me to do both, I mean COME ON. It's not fair, I'm trying so hard at all of this, and I put so much more effort into recovery than anyone else, why does it have to be SO HARD.

Saturday, July 25

Nutrition:
  • Breakfast at Trav's
  • Larabars: 1
  • bag olive oil potato chips (healthy supper!)

Sleep: 8.5 hours in bed, 845p-530a, 60% quality. Awake (h/s/g) 2-230a, otherwise solid. Also napped 9-11a or so.

Healthy Movement: Ran an easy 5k with Monica. Legs still felt like hell (from squats) going in, but by the end, things felt just fine. No issue with hamstring. Intended to lift afterward, but a nap was more important. Rescheduled lifting to post-party, but by then I didn't want to do a damned thing. Forced a pull-up bonanza (40 in 11 minutes) and then called it good, and brought my book to my couch for the rest of the night.

Fun & Play: Run with Monica, first time we've ran in ages...since last fall, I'd say. Breakfast with Monica & Dan. Nap time. Keri's super fun awesome party, which was an incredible event that also included much lovely chitchat with many lovely TS peeps.

Time & ability to crash with my book. I sort of wanted to accomplish some chores, but it felt imperative to focus on full mental & physical recovery from Tahoe. Too soon back into normal life, too many social outings, high need to withdraw & shut down. Very grateful I had that luxury.

Friday, July 24

Nutrition:
  • Larabars: 2
  • Pint Arctic zero

Sleep: 8 hours in bed, 930p-530a, 87% quality. Again solid, again alarm had to wake me. Total energy crash by 2p or so. Almost fell asleep during hammock time. 

Healthy Movement: Sore in biceps and elbows. Squat soreness is MUCH worse. Pretty much all quad, almost no backside; weird. And so very fierce; the kind people get addicted to but I now detest. I want to be strong, not sore. Friday rest day as usual. Feet were sore by 2p or so, found myself sitting & slacking due to physical & mental fatigue. 

Fun & Play: Significant progress on giant NSS project, enough to completely drain my brain power by 2p as I physically slowed. Nice chitchats with my NSS peeps. Got to share Tahoe stories with Colt and brag up BK. Lovely voice mail: no jury duty Monday...though maybe still on Tuesday. Gah. Hammock time. Reading time. Sunggly pets time. 

Thursday, July 23

Nutrition:
  • Larabars: 1
  • Smoked almonds

Sleep: 8 hours in bed, 915p-515a, 82% quality. Solid. Alarm woke me, wanted more.

Healthy Movement: Pretty damned sore from yesterday's squats, like I'm a newbie or like I did a crazy quantity. Session went fine, hamstring better than yesterday; keep improving until I can forget all about you, please! Quads got progressively worse throughout the day.

Fun & Play: Day two at dream job! Progress on big project. Session with Timmy. Happy hour with TS peeps on the patio at BugaBoo, lovely but late.

Wednesday, July 22

Nutrition:
  • Larabars: 1
  • Cobb salad at the depot
  • Most of a bag of olive oil potato chips

Sleep: 8 hours in bed, 930p-530a, 79% quality. Super solid. Alarm woke me.

Healthy Movement: Session showed easy fatigue but I moved well, no lingering aches or pains from the miles, just the hammie tweak. Sore legs from squats within two hours! Mainly quads, backside felt pretty decent. Ran the restauRUN 5k and it felt like I was doing 7-minute miles, yet only averaged 8:26. I should've slowed down and made it easy-peasy, but I was running with an out-of-towner, sharing fun stories, and somehow we stopped talking, buckled down, & flew to the finish. Slow would've been more fun.

Fun & Play: Day one at dream job! Distinct lack of fanfare, which was a disappointment, but many small, in-person moments of very nice things said. Big project dropped in my lap immediately; a tad stressful, but armed with my spreadsheets, I felt prepared for it. Session. ROUS outing.

TahoeWeek: Friday, July 17 - Tuesday, July 21

I didn't attempt to take notes at all, so this is a brain dump of everything, a week later.

Nutrition:
  • Breakfast: if at hotel, SB&J toast (which I brought from home) + fruit; if out: eggs, ham, potatoes; both: all the coffee
  • Lunch & supper: Cobb salad or an approximation thereof
  • Snacks were smoked almonds, Larabars, bacon or pork jerky, apples or bananas, rice crackers & summer sausage & fake cheeze, cran-blueberry crunch, bootch; all brought from home, and utilized often, because otherwise I wouldn't have taken in enough calories from the meals out
  • Iffy things: breakfasts out; balsamic vinaigrette dressing; lotta sugar compared to my norm
  • Acne: a couple cysts early while there, and a smattering upon return

Sleep: Pretty terrible most of the time. Hotel bed was very hard, so Thursday/Friday evenings were bad. Saturday night, of course, was the race, but we got a 2-hour nap in on Sunday. Sunday night was the only one that we truly slept in & enjoyed, solid for all of us but poor BK. Monday night Hop drove 9p-7a, and my sleep was very choppy, but much more quantity than the drive out. I never want to road-trip through the entire night ever again. Fuck that noise; 3 out of 7 nights being awful sleep is NOT okay for this orchid. Napped on Tuesday when we got home, before anything was even unloaded from the truck.

Healthy Movement: On Friday I was still a bit achey after the drive. We hiked up to the aid station and while it was tough, it was also GORGEOUS, and it was helpful to learn what we were getting into for race day. That evening is when I finally realized I would somehow be putting on 50k for race day between crewing & pacing. (Shit!) Rest of the day was lazy. Saturday crewing was a lot of work. I was hurting in all my old injury-spots and worried that I'd be dropped by BK. I wasn't, but pacing was still a lot of work. Our last bit of Sunday crewing was pure survival mode. We were properly lazy the rest of the day, and I was aching in all my lower-body joints. On Monday, the joints continued to ache, as did extremely tight lower legs from that hill, and my upper back from hauling those bags on the final hike down. Tuesday was actually fairly good, but I again had super fat feet from the drive, and I was tired as a dog.

Fun & Play/Temperance/Socialization/Nature/etc: Despite all the sleep deprivation and the massive amount of work, Tahoe was pretty fun. So much nature. Gorgeous views, got my mountains and got my lake and also got to view some great bonus true snow-on-top mountains along the drive out as well, though I would much rather have been IN THEM than driving past them.

Got my Tunnel Creek Cafe. I also had to pick every other fucking restaurant we went to because I am so stupidly difficult, and that got old fast. I really began to resent my stupid food restrictions again. Why can't my symptom just be an aching gut? The handmade, from-scratch, meat-lover's pizza that hubs ate on Sunday night would've been completely worth a few hours of pain, but not two weeks of depression.

I liked Kate a lot more than I thought I might, though by the end she seemed too high-maintenance - although, nearly anyone would've been at that point in my tired life. Never got sick of the hubs, which is rare! I did often feel awkward & stifled, like I had to be careful how I interacted with BK, lest Kate or hubs get jealous. Felt hyper-aware of anything I said, but that was probably all in my head and nothing to do with them - hated that. I do wish I'd had more solo downtime, which was nonexistent since we all shared a room and during the race we sat around chatting & I never cracked my book. When I woke up on the early side Monday morning, I eagerly dashed out & down to breakfast to have a half hour by myself before everyone else got moving. On the bright side, the TV was NEVER ONCE turned on; we each had our own screen (phone) at our fingertips so no one wanted a blaring TV, which was freaking fantastic. I hate TV noise.

The race itself was a bit disappointing; it was very, very hard for me to see BK suffering from the altitude which was so completely out of our control, and not really know what to do, how to help. I much prefer for his problems to be easily solvable! It was also hard for me to have Kate helping him, since I have interpreted his preference for aid as being all-business, what is the problem & how do we fix it, yet she of course was full of empathy and emotion and I felt like I was interrupting to help out. But, not to sound like an arrogant asshole, she isn't as good as me at doing this! I want BK to have first-rate top-notch service, damn it, and that's what I provide. My spreadsheet, once I fixed it, worked like a charm, and I crew-chiefed that bitch like a pro. I did get a bit of wonderful thanks from  him during our snack break while pacing; he said, "Thank you for doing this. I don't say it enough, but I really do appreciate that you do all this for me." And I brushed it off, but it meant everything to hear him say that, because I really do run myself into the fucking ground for him sometimes, and definitely did so for this race. He offered to buy me a shirt or something afterward, but I don't need any more crap, and I don't need to spend his money. He can repay me with his company on trail miles, and that's all I want.

Hubs truly enjoyed himself despite all the miles he put on. We even talked about when the other big races are, and would he like to come along. I insisted none of my other crewing gigs have been remotely this hard, but he held up pretty damned well for this one. His knee hurt on the trek down from the A/S for the final time, but he barely complained. He is so easy. I love him very much and feel quite lucky to have him.

It wasn't all 100% good, but nothing is. ANd overall, there isn't much I would change. A massive success!