Sunday, October 4

Nutrition: Acne is pretty bad. I hate this.
  • 1 Larabar
  • malt vinegar seasoning

Sleep: 7.75 hours in bed, 1015p-6a, 86% quality. Arrived home late & hungry, so went to bed late.

Healthy Movement: Zero after-effects from yesterday's miles: whew! Did a lifting workout and could tell in the warm-up the core was much improved even from Thursday. Felt good enough all around to give the ham a test. Back squats were a big success: felt good and strong and RIGHT. Rest not quite as successful, but significantly better than last week's effort. I then met up my BB for a walk at LCSP with the pooches. Still some vague tightness but nothing like it was even a week ago. Didn't have any later effects, either. Hooray!

Fun & Play: Sleeping in. Feeling good. Silent house. Cool bright sunny day. Successful lifting. Time with my BB in my second home (which I didn't visit even once in September). Delighted pooches. BK chitchat. LT chitchat. 

Saturday, October 3

Nutrition: Discovered I can order the sausage patties at the Duluth Grill. Happy day! Haven't been able to do that in 4 years!
  • 1 Larabar
  • Breakfast out (probably soybean oil in food prep)

Sleep: 8.5 hours in bed, 1015p-645a, 97% quality. Some tossing & turning, but better than I expected on a strange, soft, small bed, with someone who's not-Hop.

Healthy Movement: Got up feeling good. Completely spaced PT for this trip. We trekked across the road to view Lake Superior (windy & chilly) with our coffee, then drove to breakfast. Shortly after that, we were hiking for 1.5 hours, and the core was basically fine: hooray! Logged a short bit of quiet time listening to the river, and admired pretty trees. We also hiked a flat, easy trail next to the lake, traipsing over rocks and under branches a bit, and still a fine core. It was also fine going up and down at Palisade Head. It was moderately tight feeling, but it took a stretch to bother it. And no pain, not even at the end of the day; slightly tighter getting out of the car, but that's been normal for me for a few months now. A piece of me wonders if I'm building a muscle's size (through lifting) that there isn't room for, like with my shoulder pain this year. That would suck.

Fun & Play: Up North! With Lisa! Hiking trails! Without pain! Sharing details and memories of races and volunteering and all the fun times. Introduced her to the cafe that DQ & I discovered last month, the bestest favoritest restaurant that BK shared with me (Duluth Grill, obvs), and the resort I discovered just this week turned out to be quite tiny, a tad rustic, but perfectly comfortable & more than adequate. Plus: hours & hours of catching up with one of my favorite people. Score!

Friday, October 2

Nutrition: Avocado season has ended at Subway. Sad day.
  • 2 larabars
  • Half bag SP chips

Sleep: 8.25 hours in bed, 9p-515a, 91% quality.

Healthy Movement: James focused a bit more on massage today and that seemed to help a lot. Sitting for 4 hours to drive up North didn't feel as awful as anticipated. 

Fun & Play: NSS day with much productivity. Heading up north with a bestie!

Thursday, October 1


  • 2 Larabars

Sleep: 8.5 hours in bed, 9p-530a, 84% quality.

Healthy Movement: Able to notice tiny improvements in my session. Still very sore from back squats, sheesh! Walked a bit at an LAPW outing that I helped arrange, felt mostly okay. Gives me hope for some SHT strolling on Saturday.

Fun & Play: NSS day, much fun times. Outsized smartassery with Paige & Jeremy. Outing with LAPW into nature. Fun supper with the group.

Wednesday, September 30

Nutrition: Fresh round of acne...why?! Could it literally be the one stupid carrot cake muffin on Monday? Shoot me.
  • 2 Larabars

Sleep: 8.25 hours in bed, 915p-530a, 92% quality.

Healthy Movement: Sore legs from back squats, yay! Also possibly from hot tub time last night. Core is still painfully tight. UGH.

Fun & Play: DBB productivity & sense of accomplishment: doing a co-op tax return with ZERO HELP for the first time! Weekend getaways.

Nature: Immense sadness at the lack of autumn trails in my life. FB is filled with runner friends' pictures of the colorful woods, and it physically hurts to look at them and know that I won't have a weekend full of wooded, glorious trail bliss to soak up like I usually do. It hurts, and so badly. So I decided to quit moping and DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.

I booked a tiny pet-friendly cabin the weekend of Wild Duluth and sent an email to the volunteer coordinator, requesting a dog-friendly position. It wasn't in my plans, but I've gotta find a way to get to the woods.

AND I have Lisa T booked for a quick mini-getaway this coming weekend, too! CANNOT believe it worked out. HOORAY!

This has lifted my attitude greatly!

Tuesday, September 29

  • 2 Larabars

Sleep: 7.75 hours in bed, 915p-5a, 90% quality. More like 75%. Damn early-bird dogs.

Healthy Movement: Core is about the same. In NSS warm-up, could feel some improvement over last week, but it's definitely still feeling tight, and sometimes painful, on most steps. James was talking about possibly running a bit this weekend, but when I told him I can't even walk pain-free yet, he was surprised. I have zero hope for the Train & Stay. If I can walk by then, I might still go, but I'm doubting it. Session was fine; best part was Dustin letting me do back squats.

Fun & Play: NSS day. Session. Happy pups, delighted with new toys. Warm sunshine in crisp fall temps.

Monday, September 28

Nutrition: Trying to dig up some willpower to work through a long phase of food testing. Like, really & truly figure out all of my sensitivities. Can I have oats? Can I have rice? Can I have all dairy without casein, or literally just whey? The problem is, anything I can't have means two weeks of hating my face, and waiting for it to clear up again, before testing the next thing.

So (a) depression central, but even if I keep my mind through it, then (b) it's a loooong timeframe to do this. Like in 6 months, if I reacted to each thing I tried, that would mean I managed to test all of 12 foods. (And hated my face for all of that time.)

And my biggest problem is that I still regularly react (to something; I usually attribute it to sugar), so I can and will have false positives (reactions) that aren't actually to the food I try but to scooting past my sugar limit. So that means being absolutely adamant about avoiding sugar beyond my two Larabars. That sounds doable in theory, but I know it will feel impossible. On the other hand, if I am getting to add new foods, that's new calorie sources, and I wouldn't have to rely as much on those Larabars.

Setting aside the emotional rollercoaster of hating my face, unfairness of it all, etc, it means a lot of analyzing & detailed planning & decision-making, which is usually right up my alley, but which I've BEEN doing every motherfucking day for five years, and have become completely exhausted by, to the point that it's just easier to avoid everything, even though that's decidedly not easy.

I would need the right mindset to tackle this. I'm not there yet, but I want to be.

  • 2 Larabars
  • carrot cake muffin (high sugar)

Sleep: 7.75 hours in bed, 930p-515a, 83% quality. In late because I got some hubs time - rare!

Healthy Movement: Core feels the same. Hurts on some steps, hurts if I stretch it. Legs got pretty stiff again; now I'm wondering if the DBB-related stiffness is less about non-movement (since I felt it even before lunch, which is when NSS movement takes place) and more about being the day after squats (at home on Sunday to cause Monday/DBB soreness, and at NSS on Tuesday to cause Wednesday/DBB soreness). Correlation is not causation, as they say!

Fun & Play: Fun project at DBB. Fun chitchat with coworker. Using PT time to watch YouTube funnies. Reading with a snuggly Hank.