Thursday, October 30

  • 545-eggs, sausage, toast, coffee w/ CM
  • 730-apple, few super cookies, coffee w/ CM
  • 10-Kind Strong bar
  • (12p-Dustin session)
  • 130-chicken, banana
  • 330-ginger super cookies
  • 5-toddler pack
  • (515-5.4m run)
  • 7-chicken w black olives & marinara, toast, banana w/ applesauce
  • calories 2350: p 800, c 1000, f 550
Sleep: 8.25 hours in bed, 915p-530a, 86% quality. Took until at least 10 to fall asleep, then solid, then flipping over regularly 3a onward. No idea why. I do know I was dreaming of mountains as I dozed. Delicious, lovely mountains.

Healthy Movement: Body feeling good, some lagging squat soreness but not limiting movement. Actually forgot all about Achilles, yay! Beastly session.Got a little stiff throughout the afternoon, too stationary at my desk (being productive!), but the eve run went well. Went much faster than normal, thus also shorter. Felt good to push, didn't feel like I was working hard enough to hit that pace, which is quite cool! Noticed right Achilles somewhat, but pretty mild.

Fun & Play: Costume contest day - and the Finance Team wins once again! Perfect little gift from Brett. Fun session. Fun chats with assorted pals. Fast trails. More silliness with pals. Clyde snuggles.

Wednesday, October 29

Nutrition: Fabulous new recipe for over-ripe bananas (when you already have a giant stash of frozen slices): slice a banana into a bowl, microwave 30 seconds, top with Monica's homemade cinnamon applesauce (substitute with store-bought as needed, if you aren't spoiled by friends!) - and swoon!
  • 5a-eggs, chicken sausage, toast, banana w/ applesauce, coffee w/ CM
  • 8-coffee w/ CM
  • 10-lemon super cookies
  • 1230p-tuna, rice crackers, Larabar
  • 330-apple chips
  • 530-Cobb salad
  • calories 2200: p 675, c 1075, p 450

: 7.5 hours in bed, 915p-445a, 75% quality. Was in/out from 1a onward, and basically wide awake 4a onward, waiting for the buzz. Got up feeling surprisingly well-rested, considering.

Healthy Movement: Body feels good, right Achilles still tight but not as bothersome, not so noticeable in daily life. Felt like I could have ran quite easily, thus felt smart with a mid-week rest day. 20 miles on Saturday, better be smart about it. Started to feel squats a little bit after noon, but not bad at all. 

Fun & Play: Great class. Getting to lecture CP about recovery - sometimes I like being bossy! Lunch with my Buddy. Giddy coworkers. Halloween costume fun. Plotting the 50k route possibilities. Supper with Mom, quick chat with Dad on his return from Montana.

Tuesday, October 28

Nutrition: Finally remembered to bring CM to work. Coconut milk latte w/ cinnamon is now possible. NOMS.
  • 515a-eggs, chicken sausage, toast, coffee w CM
  • 7-coffee w CM
  • 945-apple, Larabar
  • (12p-Dustin session)
  • 130-chicken, banana, Renola
  • (515-5.8m run)
  • 7-summer sausage, rice crackers, SB&J toast, apple
  • calories 2125: p 775, c 900, f 450

Acne: I haven't mentioned that my face freaked the fuck out late last week into this week. Seems too late to be related to the 50k or the massive sugar boost that day. But I had too much crap that following week, in the name of recovery, and I think that's causing it. So, sugar immediately burned may be okay, but sugar lingering in the system, not so much. Does that make sense? Maybe?

Sleep: 7.75 hours in bed, 915p-5a, 81% quality. Solid as hell until 3a, then out for one more cycle until Hanky found the ants in his pants. It's gonna be SO super awesome next week when he's waking me up at 4a every day. UGH.

Healthy Movement: Body feeling good. Still have the tight Achilles, switched shoes for today's run. Perhaps just too many miles in minimals directly after the 50k. Session went pretty damned awesome. Squats a bit of a struggle, but upper body in fabulous form. Ran more lovely trail miles and they were about as hard as yesterday. Nice! Probably be feeling today's squats en la manana, though I wonder if the run helps prevent it or worsens it.
Fun & Play: Productive work day. Session with Timmy. After excitedly getting ready for afternoon class, disappointingly no one showed up. But I convinced a coworker to come to the trails with me, and it was the farthest and hardest he's ever ran, what FUN to take someone to that level!

Good chat today with CP on his next challenge, and "race mode" vs "have fun mode", which led me to think more about how I'm quite happy that I am NOT in race mode anymore. While doing well, it was a total blast, but once I wasn't doing so well anymore, once I was overreaching and underfueling and aaallll the stupid stuff...the fun was gone, no more love of running, it was now a source of stress, and that loss SO completely shattered me. I can't go back to that place. Can. Not. So maybe I'm over-avoiding race mode, but I'd rather be definitely safe than risk losing this love again. My bucket is overflowing beyond belief.

Temperance: This morning I realized I was being one of those people that I fucking HATE. I got a text from Brian that he wouldn't run with me tonight after all, needs another recovery day. I immediately got all, "But last chance this week for us, my September BK miles are currently higher than October, we can't let that stand, etc." Basically trying to guilt him into joining me so that I'm not solo again, because running with friends is ALWAYS better than running with the voices in my head. An understandable gut reaction, but so childish - and selfish as hell.

The dude doesn't need peer pressure to join me - I know he'd rather run with me than not; he's being smart about his limitations and I need to shut the fuck up about it. Yes, go ahead & be disappointed, but don't say shit that may make him feel badly for ditching me. Thankfully I realized what I was doing and immediately apologized. Thankfully he didn't care. (Boys are great.)

But it KILLS ME when people do it to me, and I hate that I was doing it to someone else in the very exact same way. I promised, and I will do my best to hold to that promise, that I won't do it again. Even if he's fine with me saying shit like that, I AM NOT. I do not want to be that asshole, to him or to anyone. Fuck that person.

Monday, October 27

Nutrition: Trying to get back to normal today. No more whole pizzas! (They're gone anyway.)
  • 445a-eggs, chicken sausage, toast, banana, coffee w/ CM
  • 10-Larabar, banana
  • 1215-chicken sausage, Larabar, apple
  • 345-carrot cake super cookies
  • (530-7m run)
  • 7-chicken, apple, SB&J toast
  • calories 2450: p 675, c 1075, f 700

Sleep: 7.5 hours in bed, 9p-430a, 81% quality. Felt rather choppy, had many weird dreams.

Healthy Movement: Tight Achilles getting out of bed, but felt better pretty quickly; rest of body feels great. Got REALLY tired about 330p in a meeting, ate some calories as soon as it was over, and came around. Had to run solo trails, weather scared people away, perhaps, and BK finally took a full rest day. It was wonderful; not as easy-peasy as yesterday, but still didn't walk any hills. Yeah!

Fun & Play: New person in class! Buddy chat. VERY productive day. A gloomy, rainy, mucky fall day...that felt fine to me. Can't bring me down! Lovely run full of deer, all the nature.

Sunday, October 26

Nutrition: I am still in overeat mode, but on the plus side, tonight's run felt goddamn amazeballs. I'll take it!
  • 6a-eggs, chicken sausage, toast, coffee w CM
  • 10-SB&J toast, more coffee w CM
  • 1p-Daiya pizza, kombucha
  • (4-7m run)
  • 730-summer sausage, rice crackers, apple
  • calories 2425: p 450, c 1725, f 300

Sleep: 8.75 hours in bed, 9p-545a, 96% quality. Worse. Very choppy in/out all night, constantly flipping over. And woken by dancing Hanky boy. Gah.

Healthy Movement: Body feeling great. Logged well-spaced sets of 10 ring pulls throughout the day, but couldn't gather the gumption to bench. Spent much of that allotted time sitting in the sunshine with a cuddly Hanky boy. Worth the trade-off. Run felt super easy & super fantastic. Would have loved to round up to 10, but Brian's legs shut us down earlier. Eh, if it means my other miles this week will feel super easy & fantastic, worth the trade-off!

Fun & Play: Chores knocked out, including salted pretzel rolls for the lucky hubs, who was home much of the day! Another gorgeously sunshiny fall day. Perfect running weather. A wondertastic run, with wondertastic company, too. Coffee time filled with running & racing talk. Seeing TWO of my NSS peeps at the grocery store. Realizing I had a very bucket-filling, not-at-all-draining, weekend. Refreshed. Happy.

Saturday, October 25

Nutrition: I ate as though I raced today. Oops. Downfall of being surrounded by food & eaters for eleven hours, then following it up with a frustrating, traffic-filled, long drive home.
  • 530a-1.5 bags pork jerky, coffee
  • 9-ginger super cookies
  • 11-Larabar
  • 1p-bag pork jerky, rice crackers, iced tea
  • All afternoon-bits of banana, apple, couple slices bacon
  • 4-Renola
  • 630-salad, Larabar, banana chips
  • Calories 3100: P 1000, C 1450, F 650

Sleep: 7.25 hours in bed, 930p-445a, 64% quality. I'd call it a little better, solid until 3a or so, then in/out until I gave up, excited for the day ahead!

Healthy Movement: Stood and volunteered for 11 hours. Spent much of the morning awkwardly bent over making PB&Js, but never had an issue. Did some crouching in afternoon to stretch the low back, but honestly never felt like sitting down. Got to sprint to the car and back twice for supplies, felt fantastic. Had super tight Achilles all day, right worse than left. Stretched them regularly throughout the afternoon.

Fun & Play: ALL THE FUNS. Worked the Horse Camp aid station for 6 hours, keeping tabs on Brian and having a blast welcoming runners and spectators, feeding them, helping them, cheering them, being silly dressed as bacon & eggs, promising bacon at their next stop, then getting grief because they actually DIDN'T have bacon, chatting with my fellow AS workers, getting to see Brian kick ass all four times that he breezed through - all of it was SO much fun. Especially since he won! Then I met him at the finish line (after he was done, the only bummer of my volunteering was not seeing the actual finish), and we went to Natchez aid station, where I knew many of the people and made more new runner friends! Super fun there, too, upbeat music & bonus food treats & kiddos & a lot more socializing since they didn't really need the extra helpers so much. It was a delight!

Nature: 11 hours in the woods, yes of course! Any time! All the time! Shortly before I had to leave at the end of the day, the music left, and it became blessedly peacefully quiet, and that made it REALLY hard to go. I stayed probably 20 extra minutes just soaking up a little bit more loveliness. This beautiful, warm fall is making me SUCH a happy girl.

Friday, October 24

  • 5-2 eggs, 3 chicken sausage, 2 toast, 2 SB&J toast, coffee w CM
  • 9-coconut rice bar
  • 1015-Renola
  • (1030-10m run)
  • 1215-toddler pack
  • 115-2 eggs, 3 chicken sausage, 2 toast, chia bootch
  • 330-lemon super cookies 
  • 5-half bag pork jerky
  • 745-salad 
  • Calories 2650: P 750, C 1050, F 850

Sleep: 8.25 hours in bed, 845p-5a, 88% quality. Solid except from 2-4a or so, pretty choppy in there. Got up feeling well-rested.

Healthy Movement: Sat all morning, then went for a medium solo trail run. Had my usual/frustrating anxiety about how hard it might be and what if I want to quit early...and somehow it was perfectly lovely and nearly-easy 10 miles. Hooray! Also: crossed into PR-month territory. Again! Entire rest of day spent sitting. Made my left core ache return. Argh!!

Fun & Play: Fun morning at NSS. Lovely run in the lovely woods on a lovely morning. Fun eve spent with cousin Diane and family.